IF ONLY
All throughout the days that I breath on this earth
I realized I could have enjoyed them without a dearth
Those fun filled moments today I regret
If only I had lived my life in a better way………
Infant age memories are too far away to be recollected
The time is when I had gained sense enough to know whats going around me
The time is when I had played all day with friends that surround me
I have come down to bat and the last over of the game is to be played
Before I am to play a stroke like the one played by Sachin tendulkar
I get a call ‘son its high time now you should come inside and do your homework
I never knew what disobedience is
If only I had no school to go……….
Gone are the days when either of us has the time to bat and bowl
But it does not mean I studied with my heart and soul
It was the time when class 10 boards were coming near
I was yet to put my perseverance to the fourth gear
The scolding of my elders were affecting me the least
Days, weeks, months all went by
Last minute study did not do its trick
Ignorance was the greatest gamble I played with my career
Then I realized, if only I had been more sincere.
The grievances had its effort even two years later
Even class 12 gave me no peace of mind, no one to back me up
No one wants the reason for ‘ Why you could not?’
All they want is ‘ If he could, why u could not?’
You have no one to speak to, but to curse only you
There is a spark that is about to blaze ‘ lets give it another shot!’
But can u? no way because you are more keen
On saving your ass from being abashed and thrashed
I took up any college to kick off with
But now I realize, If only I had given a second chance……….
I was now a grown up boy, physically and mentally.
Now, my love cannot be acclaimed as INFATUATION.
She’s not beautiful but for her heart.
She is the one whose name I want on my wedding card…
Love overflowed me and I exhilarated on seeing her.
I could not stand that any more.
I said one day…”HEY, I REALLY LIKE YOU”..
These words seemed to be the message of the hell master…and suddenly all became dark and blue.
The pompous music that was upbeating my heart now turned to the silence of death.
Did I say anything wrong or have I uttered that too early?
I still regret…., if only I had not expressed… I would not have lost that sweet friendship too.
Happiness and grievances are limitless..
But we always gaze at the greener side of the grass as humans..
And till the end of our life we would always repent for that extra desirable thing.
If only I had cheese pizza to eat.
If only I had more time to complete my work.
If only I had no heart to love her.
If only I had another day to live….
We all have lived wearily nearly one third of our life
We have passed hurdles of our teen, which makes us feel
We have grown too big to lead our life on our own
Is it so? Haha I mock at that two years show
I can’t say that I have come a long way, but I have come across a lot on my way
Today in my solace when I flip to the old days
There are just two words that keep filling my soul,
If only…..
